So it is Monday night and I am actually staying home tonight even though I am free tomorrow – chode I know but I got the upcoming 5-10 days to go out with my good friends from high school, good thing it is tradition in Germany to go out with friends at night during the holidays, at least where I am from. So I am recuperating from the weekend building up energy for the weeks ahead and decided to write a field report about Friday and Saturday.
Went out with HowBoutNo both Friday and Saturday, and were joined by F. the first night and Holland for the second one.
Venues:
Friday: We went to Werck which is a restaurant, lounge bar, club and meat market on Fridays and Saturdays for 20-35 year olds. If you’re in Amsterdam you should check it out it is great!
Saturday: We checked various venues, most bars on Rembrandplein were surprisingly dead, so we went to Leidseplein, first to a student bar called Gieter, then took a three set from the street to two other bars which were quiet. Gieter is a loud student bar with lots of frat boys and sorority chicks, absolutely, I mean abso-fucking-lutely not my kind of place.
The Interactions:
On Friday I first opened a cute blond girl who was walking back to her friends, I successfully stopped her but cannot remember what I specifically said but I do remember that I grabbed her arm. Had her hooked quickly and the conversation went smooth from there, lots of touching, clawing but no make-out, it was still very early so after 25 minutes I sent her back to her friends so that they wouldn’t get scared about losing her, didn’t want to close her cause she wasn’t that great.
Then I winged HowBoutNo who was talking to a blond girl who came with her girlfriend, who wasn’t really pretty but a cool person to hang out with so I actually enjoyed “engaging the obstacle” for him, as they (used to) say in pickup 1.0.
Went upstairs and opened a group of girls who were all double fisting draft beers, hahaha, what an invitation to open with “hey you are a bunch of alcoholics!” and we were in, everything went well except for the fact that they had to go sooner that later as they were on a pub crawl. First of all it turned out that there were more girls and they were only holding their beers, now we had something like an 8 set for the three of us. I made quick convo with a few of them but naturally started focusing on one, again lots of clawing and touching but the rest of the group decided to leave quickly and my girl went with them, I am furious cause I was about to close when they left – note to self: do it faster next time!
A minute later I see a two set in the left angle of my eye and decide to put my fury to work… I open talk random stuff and immediately get physical, I bite both girls and kiss them on the neck but only one of them bites me back. At some point the girls put their heads together and probably decide who gets to make out with me cause one of the leaves afterwards. I kept talking to and kinoing the other one, at some point during push-pull dancing I do a spin and in, touch her face and neck and pull her in for the make-out, she resists! So I could have run and hide in the corner but kept push-pull dancing with her for a minute and then I did exactly the same move as before and we started making out. Could have taken her home but didn’t want to for a reason:
Normally I only approach girls I really adore and if they hook. I usually lay them on a day 2 or 3. Now I want to learn how to escalate faster and therefore have to take a step back a few months where I approached more sets to practice my approaching skills, I stopped doing that cause I stopped liking most of the girls I approached after one minute of conversation and didn’t feel physically attracted either. The girl I made out with I approached in fury, fury to brake the plateau and learn which is a process I kicked off on Friday, it will take my game to the next level and then I can go back to being selective again, one step back, two forward….
Before we arrived at the Gieter we checked out a few other boring bars and HowBoutNo opened one nice set of blondes on the street. Cute at first but the alpha girl became annoying and quite a turn off with her weirdness so we left them after ten minutes. In the Gieter I completely choked, half heartedly opened one set, did not get blown out but did not generate any interest…neither did I have any fun there. The other guys opened a couple of sets, HowBoutNo had one really good approach when he went up to who I considered the most beautiful girl in the bar but he left her after ten minutes and then we finally left the place, finally! While I am glad to be out of there and we’re walking down the street I see a three set of hotties and before I can think I have already opened them, we took them to a couple of bars and I was doing well with one of them who was very close to one of the two blueprint girls I have in mind. Couldn’t close her though, tried a few times but she pulled out, at some point she showed me a ring on her finger, looking kind of like and engagement ring. She wasn’t engaged but the ring symbolized the serious relationship she is in, well bad luck.
Lessons learned:
I can escalate fast and well, I just need to do it a bit more often to internalize the belief better
I progress more when I go out with other people who I like AND who are into gaming
Goals:
Escalation, lots of it!
Monday, December 22, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Goals for 2009
When December comes most people start thinking about which habits they have to kick and what other changes to make to their lives. I have never really done that and always thought that changes will happen when they are due, which has worked well for me in the past. Lately I have been reflecting on my past strategy and came to the conclusion that there are at least two different types of change:
1. The ones you can plan and implement strictly through being persistent
2. The ones you cannot plan, the changes that need to come naturally, in one of the moments of situational relevance.
For example people who are thinking about ending a relationship should have probably already done so as such a decision falls into the second category but going to the gym more often or eating better can definitely be planned and falls into the first category. In fact some good efforts deteriorate due to a lack of planning or not being conscious of the effort or its need anymore Therefore, for the first time, I am articulating my 2009 resolutions of the first category here, so that I won’t forget about them and live up to the expectations I have towards myself!
Here are my resolutions for the first category and the list is still work in progress:
Nutrition
Eat less fast food, less meat (especially red meat) and eat more fish and vegetables instead (immediately)
Coca Cola an other sugary soda is only allowed on hangover days (immediately)
Hangover days should occur less frequently…not through drinking practice but through drinking less frequently (immediately)
Consume less coffee at work (immediately)
Lifestyle
Exercise at least three times a week (immediately)
Read at least 50 pages in good books every week (immediately)
No more tv zapping to kill boredom (immediately)
Waste less money on magazines etc (immediately)
Save a minimum amount (tbd) of money every month (immediately)
Pick up a team sport (football, american football or tennis) again (by March/April)
Write more, at least twice a week; this concerns my blog, forums and maybe more… (immediately)
Pickup and Self-Improvement
Focus on becoming the best person I can possibly be in all relevant areas of my life – become THE Satisfaction (continued effort)
Redirect part of my information focus from pickup to self improvement for a more holistic approach to improvement (immediately)
Improve my game but don’t get lost in the game (continued effort)
Articulate sticking points and take a boot camp to overcome them (by the end of August)
Enjoy the ride, have fun in the field and be open to new concepts (continued but effortless)
Professional
Become the consulting rock-star again that I used to be in April (by mid-year review in May)
Go up or leave for a better firm (Decision due latest in May)
Start my own business on the side (by the end of June)
Keep my mind and eyes open for out of the box alternatives to my consulting job – I like my job but there might be more for me in this world (continued effort)
As stated above, this list is still work in progress, I might add a thing here and there before I come with a final timeline to implement the above.
Satisfaction
1. The ones you can plan and implement strictly through being persistent
2. The ones you cannot plan, the changes that need to come naturally, in one of the moments of situational relevance.
For example people who are thinking about ending a relationship should have probably already done so as such a decision falls into the second category but going to the gym more often or eating better can definitely be planned and falls into the first category. In fact some good efforts deteriorate due to a lack of planning or not being conscious of the effort or its need anymore Therefore, for the first time, I am articulating my 2009 resolutions of the first category here, so that I won’t forget about them and live up to the expectations I have towards myself!
Here are my resolutions for the first category and the list is still work in progress:
Nutrition
Eat less fast food, less meat (especially red meat) and eat more fish and vegetables instead (immediately)
Coca Cola an other sugary soda is only allowed on hangover days (immediately)
Hangover days should occur less frequently…not through drinking practice but through drinking less frequently (immediately)
Consume less coffee at work (immediately)
Lifestyle
Exercise at least three times a week (immediately)
Read at least 50 pages in good books every week (immediately)
No more tv zapping to kill boredom (immediately)
Waste less money on magazines etc (immediately)
Save a minimum amount (tbd) of money every month (immediately)
Pick up a team sport (football, american football or tennis) again (by March/April)
Write more, at least twice a week; this concerns my blog, forums and maybe more… (immediately)
Pickup and Self-Improvement
Focus on becoming the best person I can possibly be in all relevant areas of my life – become THE Satisfaction (continued effort)
Redirect part of my information focus from pickup to self improvement for a more holistic approach to improvement (immediately)
Improve my game but don’t get lost in the game (continued effort)
Articulate sticking points and take a boot camp to overcome them (by the end of August)
Enjoy the ride, have fun in the field and be open to new concepts (continued but effortless)
Professional
Become the consulting rock-star again that I used to be in April (by mid-year review in May)
Go up or leave for a better firm (Decision due latest in May)
Start my own business on the side (by the end of June)
Keep my mind and eyes open for out of the box alternatives to my consulting job – I like my job but there might be more for me in this world (continued effort)
As stated above, this list is still work in progress, I might add a thing here and there before I come with a final timeline to implement the above.
Satisfaction
Sunday, November 23, 2008
FR: Zero intent but fun - allowing the off night
There no descriptions of any interactions between me and any girls in this FR, the reason is that there were none last night. I went out by myself purely to have fun! I had a shitty week at work with lots of hours and shitty review conversations cause I have worked in a fucked up project situation for the last 8 months but that's a different story...
When I arrived at the club I felt really good but did not feel like approaching girls or even making any conversation with anybody. Now you probably think..AA and a bad night. But let me assure you that AA is under control for years already and the night was great. I was loving the music, dancing my heart out and having tons of fun by myself. I was even approached twice by girls but wasn't interested. Couple of girls were also close by wherever I hung out (read: danced). Point is that I had a great night with zero interactions and zero intent. Sure if my dream girl had walked in my super charged intent would have come up by itself leave my control to get wild and I had surely approached her, but all her different versions chose different clubs for the night. Again, I had a great night by myself without any friends or "game", or whatever you'd like to call it. A few months ago I probably would not have allowed that to happen, I would have approached no matter what and probably even had success in terms of makeout or lay. The point is that I felt much better this morning compared to the times when i approached no matter what. Probably this is the case because I truly didi what I felt like doing, which in this case was having fun by myself!
As a note, I don't plan to make this "no interaction night" a habit at all and especially newbies should not try to find any useful starting advice in the report above but if you're intermediate or advanced...think about it, ever felt like you had to game? And did it work or most importantly did it make you happy?
I will continue to do what I truly feel like doing in the moment and [B]NOT[/B] what I'm conditioned to think that I should be doing! Luckily most of the times when I go out I truly feel like meeting girls and taking them home!
Satisfaction
When I arrived at the club I felt really good but did not feel like approaching girls or even making any conversation with anybody. Now you probably think..AA and a bad night. But let me assure you that AA is under control for years already and the night was great. I was loving the music, dancing my heart out and having tons of fun by myself. I was even approached twice by girls but wasn't interested. Couple of girls were also close by wherever I hung out (read: danced). Point is that I had a great night with zero interactions and zero intent. Sure if my dream girl had walked in my super charged intent would have come up by itself leave my control to get wild and I had surely approached her, but all her different versions chose different clubs for the night. Again, I had a great night by myself without any friends or "game", or whatever you'd like to call it. A few months ago I probably would not have allowed that to happen, I would have approached no matter what and probably even had success in terms of makeout or lay. The point is that I felt much better this morning compared to the times when i approached no matter what. Probably this is the case because I truly didi what I felt like doing, which in this case was having fun by myself!
As a note, I don't plan to make this "no interaction night" a habit at all and especially newbies should not try to find any useful starting advice in the report above but if you're intermediate or advanced...think about it, ever felt like you had to game? And did it work or most importantly did it make you happy?
I will continue to do what I truly feel like doing in the moment and [B]NOT[/B] what I'm conditioned to think that I should be doing! Luckily most of the times when I go out I truly feel like meeting girls and taking them home!
Satisfaction
Thursday, November 13, 2008
LR: Tits Fever & Failed Chopstick Test
Last weekend I hung out with the girl I made out with the weekend before, not the cute black one but the eastern block girl, or Redland girl as I like to think of her.
So I don’t know if I told you last time but her tits…holy shit here tits are huge…in fact I have never seen natural tits that huge…and to be honest, not my thing after all cause from a certain size onwards gravity will always have its way… You guys know about the chopstick test? Well, lift up a boob put a chopstick under it, let go of the tit, then let go of the chopstick and if it falls you have excellent boobs on your hands, if it gets stuck…guess what, boobs are hanging…no girl should fail before the age of 30, and ideally never, because otherwise you’ll go to saggy-boobs land soon. Whatever, she would have failed it… The rest of her body is great though and she has a cute face.
So we met at her house but straight went away cause I requested to be shown the best places of the little town she lives in so we walked, kissed and had a few drinks for a couple of hours…”cut the shit its time to fuck”, suddenly the imaginary Jeffy stood in front of me and yelled this at me over and over again. So, I told her, “lets go home and watch the latest Californication episode, gotta check out how my role model Moody is doing these days”, she loves the show, laughed about my comment and to her place we went. Now comes a part that put me off, she bought a six pack of pint (0.5 liter) beer cans on the way back, for herself…I was driving and don’t drink then.
We made out but I couldn’t get rid of any of her clothes, tried to lead and took my shirt off after a few no’s. Later on her room mate knocked on the door and I met and greeted her with my bare chest and couldn’t refuse to start joking about this situation, boom room mate was attracted too. We went for another drink around 10pm, damn their little town is so boring, nothing compared to beautifully crazy Amsterdam. Returned to her place after the drink around midnight and started making out again; by the way I really hate making out on a small single person bed (1 yard/meter wide)… it sucks. Anyways shirt and bra came off and she clearly would have failed the chopstick test. At this point I just wanted to fuck her and go home to smoke some sporty Dutch cigarette but guess what…the damn pants didn’t come off, it is 2am by now… I arrived at her place at 4pm and at 4am she was naked and ready to get laid. Since I hadn’t slept the night before my cock went limb after a couple of minutes in her. Couldn’t come or hold an erection…and guess what she gets mad, I thought what the fuck I am leaving and got up, she is like no please stay. Out of courtesy I did stay until 10am and got about 4 hours of sleep on a shitty bed that was way too small for one person, yeah we were still with the two of us. She didn’t even want to let me go in the morning but fuck that, I have had enough and needed to go home, took me some effort to not lose the friendly appearance.
I know this sounds a bit degrading for the chick which is really not how it is meant but even half a week later as I am writing this, I still pissed off at myself for missing a great party with lots of hot chicks on Saturday night for this sub-optimal semi-lay. Never again cause I just could have easily picked up a girl at the party I was supposed to be at, come on I slept with the hosting girl a few already and she would have advertised my skills to her friends, yes we do have such a great on and off FB relationship without any jealousy involved but that’s for a new report.
Satisfaction
So I don’t know if I told you last time but her tits…holy shit here tits are huge…in fact I have never seen natural tits that huge…and to be honest, not my thing after all cause from a certain size onwards gravity will always have its way… You guys know about the chopstick test? Well, lift up a boob put a chopstick under it, let go of the tit, then let go of the chopstick and if it falls you have excellent boobs on your hands, if it gets stuck…guess what, boobs are hanging…no girl should fail before the age of 30, and ideally never, because otherwise you’ll go to saggy-boobs land soon. Whatever, she would have failed it… The rest of her body is great though and she has a cute face.
So we met at her house but straight went away cause I requested to be shown the best places of the little town she lives in so we walked, kissed and had a few drinks for a couple of hours…”cut the shit its time to fuck”, suddenly the imaginary Jeffy stood in front of me and yelled this at me over and over again. So, I told her, “lets go home and watch the latest Californication episode, gotta check out how my role model Moody is doing these days”, she loves the show, laughed about my comment and to her place we went. Now comes a part that put me off, she bought a six pack of pint (0.5 liter) beer cans on the way back, for herself…I was driving and don’t drink then.
We made out but I couldn’t get rid of any of her clothes, tried to lead and took my shirt off after a few no’s. Later on her room mate knocked on the door and I met and greeted her with my bare chest and couldn’t refuse to start joking about this situation, boom room mate was attracted too. We went for another drink around 10pm, damn their little town is so boring, nothing compared to beautifully crazy Amsterdam. Returned to her place after the drink around midnight and started making out again; by the way I really hate making out on a small single person bed (1 yard/meter wide)… it sucks. Anyways shirt and bra came off and she clearly would have failed the chopstick test. At this point I just wanted to fuck her and go home to smoke some sporty Dutch cigarette but guess what…the damn pants didn’t come off, it is 2am by now… I arrived at her place at 4pm and at 4am she was naked and ready to get laid. Since I hadn’t slept the night before my cock went limb after a couple of minutes in her. Couldn’t come or hold an erection…and guess what she gets mad, I thought what the fuck I am leaving and got up, she is like no please stay. Out of courtesy I did stay until 10am and got about 4 hours of sleep on a shitty bed that was way too small for one person, yeah we were still with the two of us. She didn’t even want to let me go in the morning but fuck that, I have had enough and needed to go home, took me some effort to not lose the friendly appearance.
I know this sounds a bit degrading for the chick which is really not how it is meant but even half a week later as I am writing this, I still pissed off at myself for missing a great party with lots of hot chicks on Saturday night for this sub-optimal semi-lay. Never again cause I just could have easily picked up a girl at the party I was supposed to be at, come on I slept with the hosting girl a few already and she would have advertised my skills to her friends, yes we do have such a great on and off FB relationship without any jealousy involved but that’s for a new report.
Satisfaction
Monday, November 3, 2008
FR: Three in one, Halloween was promising but the weekend got better
Being destroyed just before a make-out with a beautiful girl by a former FB on Halloween through a mix of boiling Caribbean blood and glowing frustration about me breaking up with her didn’t get me frustrated. I didn’t cuddle up in a corner and cried, no the fury ignited and Saturday night was great.
Went to the museums night with a friend who said he’d bring a couple of friends who he joined earlier than me cause he didn’t want to look at 19th century art anymore before partying. I joined after I saw the collection and ran 2 good sets with one number close, didn’t want to close the other one…don’t really fall for stupid chicks. Came into the museum’s restaurant bar with a gleaming smile of positivity on my face, yes I still cherish yesterday’s learning pointJ. Straight away, everybody was infected, my smile was going around like a positive but extremely contagious influenza virus and everybody got infected. Said “lets go the front of the museum, there is beautiful life music”, to my friend and the four girls with him and everybody stood up straight away. Now, working dominance had ignited my powerful flirt state, whatever you want to call it in your book of pick-up acronyms. Right I away, I clawed the two hot ones and we went, thought both girls were really cute so I couldn’t decide where to direct more sexual intent but one of them said she was getting married this year after push/pulled her about the ring she was wearing. Ok, some choices are easy given the wedding situation, especially between two 8.0 girls in a social circle setting. Basically the girl responded very well to my dominance, guess that’s her former eastern block background…or maybe my ten game…;). We made out quite a bit even though she doesn’t like public affection but who cares, my rules, my affection. There was no way to pull her though, at least not unless your game is far beyond mine, I mean on a good instructor level. Thing is that the two boring girls from the group were staying at her place, and god they were full of boredom and morals. Her other cute friend actually told her “go home with him, give your keys to the girls, he’s worth it”…wow….state gets pumped even more…and dominance kicks in again. “Ok lets go, time to go, I’ll make you a chocolate ice cream breakfast too” Girl starts laughing and wants to go while she is still fully clawed, with both of my dangerous claws. Boring friend interrupts and says that she doesn’t know how to get there…blablabla responsibility kicks in and pooof the pull is gone. But yeah, no worries boys, text messages have been exchanged and we’re meeting up coming Saturday when I am back in Amsterdam…glory times, LR will follow.
Sunday afternoon, next girl, my only ever serious (>3 years) relationship. Went well, felt great like it always used to but no more details here because she is one of the most important girls in my life even though we’re not together anymore, we still got a lot of mutual love for each other…oh shit is the word love even aloud here in this world of “hardcore OGs, wannabe OGs and everything in between”. Well, the OGs should be able to understand, otherwise they don’t deserve the status. We’re just liking and respecting each other and feel that we’re an important part of each others past and present, but that in a different way then in the past. And yeah, we enjoy spending time every once in a while.
Sunday night, meet another social circle number close for dinner, social circle game weekend you might call it but check out the Halloween FR, no social circle game there. Now this girl is girlfriend material…but I am not;). She is a cute black girl with the whole package (looks, character, confidence, intelligence, clear values and goals), it took me so much effort to get her to kiss me, biting her neck in the restaurant, clawing, positivity and lots of intelligent conversation. Anyways, we ended up kissing on her couch and damn, she always managed to pull back first…those values, “I’m not giving you anything more yet, have to make you wait to keep it interesting” Couple of subtle freeze outs in response but it did not happen, I didn’t make it happen but next time I will.
Maybe two LRs next weekend ;)
Satisfaction
Went to the museums night with a friend who said he’d bring a couple of friends who he joined earlier than me cause he didn’t want to look at 19th century art anymore before partying. I joined after I saw the collection and ran 2 good sets with one number close, didn’t want to close the other one…don’t really fall for stupid chicks. Came into the museum’s restaurant bar with a gleaming smile of positivity on my face, yes I still cherish yesterday’s learning pointJ. Straight away, everybody was infected, my smile was going around like a positive but extremely contagious influenza virus and everybody got infected. Said “lets go the front of the museum, there is beautiful life music”, to my friend and the four girls with him and everybody stood up straight away. Now, working dominance had ignited my powerful flirt state, whatever you want to call it in your book of pick-up acronyms. Right I away, I clawed the two hot ones and we went, thought both girls were really cute so I couldn’t decide where to direct more sexual intent but one of them said she was getting married this year after push/pulled her about the ring she was wearing. Ok, some choices are easy given the wedding situation, especially between two 8.0 girls in a social circle setting. Basically the girl responded very well to my dominance, guess that’s her former eastern block background…or maybe my ten game…;). We made out quite a bit even though she doesn’t like public affection but who cares, my rules, my affection. There was no way to pull her though, at least not unless your game is far beyond mine, I mean on a good instructor level. Thing is that the two boring girls from the group were staying at her place, and god they were full of boredom and morals. Her other cute friend actually told her “go home with him, give your keys to the girls, he’s worth it”…wow….state gets pumped even more…and dominance kicks in again. “Ok lets go, time to go, I’ll make you a chocolate ice cream breakfast too” Girl starts laughing and wants to go while she is still fully clawed, with both of my dangerous claws. Boring friend interrupts and says that she doesn’t know how to get there…blablabla responsibility kicks in and pooof the pull is gone. But yeah, no worries boys, text messages have been exchanged and we’re meeting up coming Saturday when I am back in Amsterdam…glory times, LR will follow.
Sunday afternoon, next girl, my only ever serious (>3 years) relationship. Went well, felt great like it always used to but no more details here because she is one of the most important girls in my life even though we’re not together anymore, we still got a lot of mutual love for each other…oh shit is the word love even aloud here in this world of “hardcore OGs, wannabe OGs and everything in between”. Well, the OGs should be able to understand, otherwise they don’t deserve the status. We’re just liking and respecting each other and feel that we’re an important part of each others past and present, but that in a different way then in the past. And yeah, we enjoy spending time every once in a while.
Sunday night, meet another social circle number close for dinner, social circle game weekend you might call it but check out the Halloween FR, no social circle game there. Now this girl is girlfriend material…but I am not;). She is a cute black girl with the whole package (looks, character, confidence, intelligence, clear values and goals), it took me so much effort to get her to kiss me, biting her neck in the restaurant, clawing, positivity and lots of intelligent conversation. Anyways, we ended up kissing on her couch and damn, she always managed to pull back first…those values, “I’m not giving you anything more yet, have to make you wait to keep it interesting” Couple of subtle freeze outs in response but it did not happen, I didn’t make it happen but next time I will.
Maybe two LRs next weekend ;)
Satisfaction
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Time to switch gears: lazy comfort zone relaxation out – furious motivation to progress in
Sometimes painful decisions have to be made and carried out, the one I am about to tell you about was almost made automatically in the moment, without thinking. Thinking only came in later and I am quite thankful to my mind that he stayed out of this one and let me handle it full, non-disturbed, pure presence. I started rationalizing this decision later on last night and came to the conclusion that it was absolutely the right thing to do, for everybody’s satisfaction.
So, I cut a girl lose who I had been seeing for a couple of months since July with a break of 1.5 months in between. She had started to like me too much and wanted to have more and more of my time which is roughly my scarcest good to demand. On my side, I was starting to settle in a kind of fuck buddy situation; it became a comfort zone. The girl is sweet so I didn’t want to hurt her or cause any more mutual drama than necessary but I needed to get out of this comfort zone, my game development had reach a plateau, maybe even a decline…out of pure laziness. I also felt that the girl was about to fall in love with me and I cannot let that happen if it isn’t mutual. Most girls clearly understand and also like the fact that I am not boyfriend material at the moment but overtime some tend to get to attached. When this happens, it is time to cut the connection and get back out there. This is what real satisfaction for the world is all about because the girl would have gotten more hurt if I had kept the ‘relationship’ going and because I didn’t my game will also develop better and into the right direction, lazy times are over.
All this happened last weekend and this weekend I already went out yesterday for Halloween and will go out tonight too. Well, time to clean the house a bit now cause I got a feeling that I’ll pull tonight ;)
Enjoy the rest of the weekend!
Satisfaction
So, I cut a girl lose who I had been seeing for a couple of months since July with a break of 1.5 months in between. She had started to like me too much and wanted to have more and more of my time which is roughly my scarcest good to demand. On my side, I was starting to settle in a kind of fuck buddy situation; it became a comfort zone. The girl is sweet so I didn’t want to hurt her or cause any more mutual drama than necessary but I needed to get out of this comfort zone, my game development had reach a plateau, maybe even a decline…out of pure laziness. I also felt that the girl was about to fall in love with me and I cannot let that happen if it isn’t mutual. Most girls clearly understand and also like the fact that I am not boyfriend material at the moment but overtime some tend to get to attached. When this happens, it is time to cut the connection and get back out there. This is what real satisfaction for the world is all about because the girl would have gotten more hurt if I had kept the ‘relationship’ going and because I didn’t my game will also develop better and into the right direction, lazy times are over.
All this happened last weekend and this weekend I already went out yesterday for Halloween and will go out tonight too. Well, time to clean the house a bit now cause I got a feeling that I’ll pull tonight ;)
Enjoy the rest of the weekend!
Satisfaction
Halloween
Well, I thought that I wouldn't have time to write this field report right now as I was 100% sure that I'd get laid tonight. Sorry to give away the overall outcome of the night in the beginning but after all shit happens.
So I went to Halloween party in Amsterdam (in Paradiso for the ones that know Amsterdam), Halloween is not that big here in Europe, 60% don't even dress up but the air is still more sexy than usually. Opened a bunch of sets partially directly ("you're a cutey but I wanted to meet you to see if you're cool") or semi-directly ("do you think spells work?" with witches and "hey you're a devil, I am a secret vampire, how bad are you really?" to chicks with devil horns)In a nutshell, three girls had boyfriends in the vicinity (+/- 3 meter/yards away), one hooked for five minutes and returned to boyfriend when he got mad, the other two didn't hook and straight returned the direct opener with "I'm here with my boyfriend" who then showed up straight away and it was off.
Best physical connection was with a German girl who had huge tits and a very tight and revealing top to bearly cover them. She had a little too much everywhere but couldn't be called a fatty at all. We were grinding and dry-humping really hard and it was getting hot with lots of touching. There is usually not much grinding going on here in Amsterdam and in most of Europe. It usually leads at least to a make out when it happens. Different than in the US I know and maybe in the UK, but that I don't know...anyways who cares back to the point. So I make the crucial mistake of deciding to get a drink first when I wanted to and surely could have kissed closed her right there, but my fucking mouth was so damn dry, that I needed water first. Fuck, I am still getting pissed off now writing about it because I could be in her right now. When I came back, one of her girlfriends had convinced her that she should not keep going. Tried to be dominant but wasn't enough, poooff gone. Learning points are clear, either I should have befriended her friends better or the damn dry mouth should have been prevented somehow by myself, maybe with gum or so. Anyways done, my fault.
So, second interesting 3set were really nice Dutch girls, actually one of them opened me by feeling my abs, had a great connection with her but went away at some point to check for my friend who was really drunk unfortunately but no problem, I come back everything is cool. Girl is older than me but I tell that I am not eighteen anymore and have still seen Ol' Dirty Bastard live on stage with the clan, the dj was playing ODB at that point. She was laughing and everything was cool. So anyways I could keep braging on about how well I ran my game but who cares, this is what happened half an hour into it: this carribean girl who I used to bed for a while this summer comes onto us dressed in a Venetian mask and a black cape, dressed in all black. I recognized her from a few meters when she walked towards us with massive fury in her eyes. This girl basically elaborately destroys everything that I had build over the last 40 minutes or so with her furious destruction walk-up into my close contact dancefloor game, so pooof gone.
Then there were two gorgeous French girls who didn't speak much English, Dutch or German and I don't speak much French so at some point that didn't happen cause I didn't know what to say anymore. Wth two foreign girls staying here together over the weekend I have to be able to talk cause I have to convince both that it is ok for one of them to fuck me, or actually....both would be cool too That's basically it except for the couple of blow outs, where I should have been more dominant cause it was dancefloor game which works best on strong physical dominance for me.
Well, time to crash now, peace.
Satisfaction
So I went to Halloween party in Amsterdam (in Paradiso for the ones that know Amsterdam), Halloween is not that big here in Europe, 60% don't even dress up but the air is still more sexy than usually. Opened a bunch of sets partially directly ("you're a cutey but I wanted to meet you to see if you're cool") or semi-directly ("do you think spells work?" with witches and "hey you're a devil, I am a secret vampire, how bad are you really?" to chicks with devil horns)In a nutshell, three girls had boyfriends in the vicinity (+/- 3 meter/yards away), one hooked for five minutes and returned to boyfriend when he got mad, the other two didn't hook and straight returned the direct opener with "I'm here with my boyfriend" who then showed up straight away and it was off.
Best physical connection was with a German girl who had huge tits and a very tight and revealing top to bearly cover them. She had a little too much everywhere but couldn't be called a fatty at all. We were grinding and dry-humping really hard and it was getting hot with lots of touching. There is usually not much grinding going on here in Amsterdam and in most of Europe. It usually leads at least to a make out when it happens. Different than in the US I know and maybe in the UK, but that I don't know...anyways who cares back to the point. So I make the crucial mistake of deciding to get a drink first when I wanted to and surely could have kissed closed her right there, but my fucking mouth was so damn dry, that I needed water first. Fuck, I am still getting pissed off now writing about it because I could be in her right now. When I came back, one of her girlfriends had convinced her that she should not keep going. Tried to be dominant but wasn't enough, poooff gone. Learning points are clear, either I should have befriended her friends better or the damn dry mouth should have been prevented somehow by myself, maybe with gum or so. Anyways done, my fault.
So, second interesting 3set were really nice Dutch girls, actually one of them opened me by feeling my abs, had a great connection with her but went away at some point to check for my friend who was really drunk unfortunately but no problem, I come back everything is cool. Girl is older than me but I tell that I am not eighteen anymore and have still seen Ol' Dirty Bastard live on stage with the clan, the dj was playing ODB at that point. She was laughing and everything was cool. So anyways I could keep braging on about how well I ran my game but who cares, this is what happened half an hour into it: this carribean girl who I used to bed for a while this summer comes onto us dressed in a Venetian mask and a black cape, dressed in all black. I recognized her from a few meters when she walked towards us with massive fury in her eyes. This girl basically elaborately destroys everything that I had build over the last 40 minutes or so with her furious destruction walk-up into my close contact dancefloor game, so pooof gone.
Then there were two gorgeous French girls who didn't speak much English, Dutch or German and I don't speak much French so at some point that didn't happen cause I didn't know what to say anymore. Wth two foreign girls staying here together over the weekend I have to be able to talk cause I have to convince both that it is ok for one of them to fuck me, or actually....both would be cool too That's basically it except for the couple of blow outs, where I should have been more dominant cause it was dancefloor game which works best on strong physical dominance for me.
Well, time to crash now, peace.
Satisfaction
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Satisfaction for the World
Satisfaction for the world... a blog of adventure and improvement starts today, I'm so excited to share this with you. You can expect stories about my game...and its development from currently ok and inconsistently scoring to top notch, extreme, hardcore consistent game of glory and that's a promise! Furthermore you'll read about me becoming my best self, the very best possible person I can be in this world. The reason for these two development streams is that I feel that I have consistently underperformed my abilities and potential in the last 26 years, except for certain athletic occassions where I have sometimes outperformed my potential. So I know, or knew, how it works to outperform my average and will now strive to rediscover this skill and make it the consistent motto of my glorious life in all its areas... with a focus on my game. Now you're thinking why his game? Where is the trigger? Well the trigger is that my girlfriend and me broke up with each other half a year ago which drove me back into the game, since then, four gorgeous women have been laid...but that's not it...I'm after extreme, fun adventures with one or more women...so expect to read about some crazy adventures of glory soon! Bringing this determination for improvement to one area of my life will affect and improve the rest of me because women like all the qualities that I want to push in myself, and I will push these harder than anyone and pursue my best-self harder than ever. Enjoy reading about the ride, I'll enjoy driving it!
Much love to the world,
Satisfaction
Much love to the world,
Satisfaction
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