There no descriptions of any interactions between me and any girls in this FR, the reason is that there were none last night. I went out by myself purely to have fun! I had a shitty week at work with lots of hours and shitty review conversations cause I have worked in a fucked up project situation for the last 8 months but that's a different story...
When I arrived at the club I felt really good but did not feel like approaching girls or even making any conversation with anybody. Now you probably think..AA and a bad night. But let me assure you that AA is under control for years already and the night was great. I was loving the music, dancing my heart out and having tons of fun by myself. I was even approached twice by girls but wasn't interested. Couple of girls were also close by wherever I hung out (read: danced). Point is that I had a great night with zero interactions and zero intent. Sure if my dream girl had walked in my super charged intent would have come up by itself leave my control to get wild and I had surely approached her, but all her different versions chose different clubs for the night. Again, I had a great night by myself without any friends or "game", or whatever you'd like to call it. A few months ago I probably would not have allowed that to happen, I would have approached no matter what and probably even had success in terms of makeout or lay. The point is that I felt much better this morning compared to the times when i approached no matter what. Probably this is the case because I truly didi what I felt like doing, which in this case was having fun by myself!
As a note, I don't plan to make this "no interaction night" a habit at all and especially newbies should not try to find any useful starting advice in the report above but if you're intermediate or advanced...think about it, ever felt like you had to game? And did it work or most importantly did it make you happy?
I will continue to do what I truly feel like doing in the moment and [B]NOT[/B] what I'm conditioned to think that I should be doing! Luckily most of the times when I go out I truly feel like meeting girls and taking them home!
Satisfaction
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
LR: Tits Fever & Failed Chopstick Test
Last weekend I hung out with the girl I made out with the weekend before, not the cute black one but the eastern block girl, or Redland girl as I like to think of her.
So I don’t know if I told you last time but her tits…holy shit here tits are huge…in fact I have never seen natural tits that huge…and to be honest, not my thing after all cause from a certain size onwards gravity will always have its way… You guys know about the chopstick test? Well, lift up a boob put a chopstick under it, let go of the tit, then let go of the chopstick and if it falls you have excellent boobs on your hands, if it gets stuck…guess what, boobs are hanging…no girl should fail before the age of 30, and ideally never, because otherwise you’ll go to saggy-boobs land soon. Whatever, she would have failed it… The rest of her body is great though and she has a cute face.
So we met at her house but straight went away cause I requested to be shown the best places of the little town she lives in so we walked, kissed and had a few drinks for a couple of hours…”cut the shit its time to fuck”, suddenly the imaginary Jeffy stood in front of me and yelled this at me over and over again. So, I told her, “lets go home and watch the latest Californication episode, gotta check out how my role model Moody is doing these days”, she loves the show, laughed about my comment and to her place we went. Now comes a part that put me off, she bought a six pack of pint (0.5 liter) beer cans on the way back, for herself…I was driving and don’t drink then.
We made out but I couldn’t get rid of any of her clothes, tried to lead and took my shirt off after a few no’s. Later on her room mate knocked on the door and I met and greeted her with my bare chest and couldn’t refuse to start joking about this situation, boom room mate was attracted too. We went for another drink around 10pm, damn their little town is so boring, nothing compared to beautifully crazy Amsterdam. Returned to her place after the drink around midnight and started making out again; by the way I really hate making out on a small single person bed (1 yard/meter wide)… it sucks. Anyways shirt and bra came off and she clearly would have failed the chopstick test. At this point I just wanted to fuck her and go home to smoke some sporty Dutch cigarette but guess what…the damn pants didn’t come off, it is 2am by now… I arrived at her place at 4pm and at 4am she was naked and ready to get laid. Since I hadn’t slept the night before my cock went limb after a couple of minutes in her. Couldn’t come or hold an erection…and guess what she gets mad, I thought what the fuck I am leaving and got up, she is like no please stay. Out of courtesy I did stay until 10am and got about 4 hours of sleep on a shitty bed that was way too small for one person, yeah we were still with the two of us. She didn’t even want to let me go in the morning but fuck that, I have had enough and needed to go home, took me some effort to not lose the friendly appearance.
I know this sounds a bit degrading for the chick which is really not how it is meant but even half a week later as I am writing this, I still pissed off at myself for missing a great party with lots of hot chicks on Saturday night for this sub-optimal semi-lay. Never again cause I just could have easily picked up a girl at the party I was supposed to be at, come on I slept with the hosting girl a few already and she would have advertised my skills to her friends, yes we do have such a great on and off FB relationship without any jealousy involved but that’s for a new report.
Satisfaction
So I don’t know if I told you last time but her tits…holy shit here tits are huge…in fact I have never seen natural tits that huge…and to be honest, not my thing after all cause from a certain size onwards gravity will always have its way… You guys know about the chopstick test? Well, lift up a boob put a chopstick under it, let go of the tit, then let go of the chopstick and if it falls you have excellent boobs on your hands, if it gets stuck…guess what, boobs are hanging…no girl should fail before the age of 30, and ideally never, because otherwise you’ll go to saggy-boobs land soon. Whatever, she would have failed it… The rest of her body is great though and she has a cute face.
So we met at her house but straight went away cause I requested to be shown the best places of the little town she lives in so we walked, kissed and had a few drinks for a couple of hours…”cut the shit its time to fuck”, suddenly the imaginary Jeffy stood in front of me and yelled this at me over and over again. So, I told her, “lets go home and watch the latest Californication episode, gotta check out how my role model Moody is doing these days”, she loves the show, laughed about my comment and to her place we went. Now comes a part that put me off, she bought a six pack of pint (0.5 liter) beer cans on the way back, for herself…I was driving and don’t drink then.
We made out but I couldn’t get rid of any of her clothes, tried to lead and took my shirt off after a few no’s. Later on her room mate knocked on the door and I met and greeted her with my bare chest and couldn’t refuse to start joking about this situation, boom room mate was attracted too. We went for another drink around 10pm, damn their little town is so boring, nothing compared to beautifully crazy Amsterdam. Returned to her place after the drink around midnight and started making out again; by the way I really hate making out on a small single person bed (1 yard/meter wide)… it sucks. Anyways shirt and bra came off and she clearly would have failed the chopstick test. At this point I just wanted to fuck her and go home to smoke some sporty Dutch cigarette but guess what…the damn pants didn’t come off, it is 2am by now… I arrived at her place at 4pm and at 4am she was naked and ready to get laid. Since I hadn’t slept the night before my cock went limb after a couple of minutes in her. Couldn’t come or hold an erection…and guess what she gets mad, I thought what the fuck I am leaving and got up, she is like no please stay. Out of courtesy I did stay until 10am and got about 4 hours of sleep on a shitty bed that was way too small for one person, yeah we were still with the two of us. She didn’t even want to let me go in the morning but fuck that, I have had enough and needed to go home, took me some effort to not lose the friendly appearance.
I know this sounds a bit degrading for the chick which is really not how it is meant but even half a week later as I am writing this, I still pissed off at myself for missing a great party with lots of hot chicks on Saturday night for this sub-optimal semi-lay. Never again cause I just could have easily picked up a girl at the party I was supposed to be at, come on I slept with the hosting girl a few already and she would have advertised my skills to her friends, yes we do have such a great on and off FB relationship without any jealousy involved but that’s for a new report.
Satisfaction
Monday, November 3, 2008
FR: Three in one, Halloween was promising but the weekend got better
Being destroyed just before a make-out with a beautiful girl by a former FB on Halloween through a mix of boiling Caribbean blood and glowing frustration about me breaking up with her didn’t get me frustrated. I didn’t cuddle up in a corner and cried, no the fury ignited and Saturday night was great.
Went to the museums night with a friend who said he’d bring a couple of friends who he joined earlier than me cause he didn’t want to look at 19th century art anymore before partying. I joined after I saw the collection and ran 2 good sets with one number close, didn’t want to close the other one…don’t really fall for stupid chicks. Came into the museum’s restaurant bar with a gleaming smile of positivity on my face, yes I still cherish yesterday’s learning pointJ. Straight away, everybody was infected, my smile was going around like a positive but extremely contagious influenza virus and everybody got infected. Said “lets go the front of the museum, there is beautiful life music”, to my friend and the four girls with him and everybody stood up straight away. Now, working dominance had ignited my powerful flirt state, whatever you want to call it in your book of pick-up acronyms. Right I away, I clawed the two hot ones and we went, thought both girls were really cute so I couldn’t decide where to direct more sexual intent but one of them said she was getting married this year after push/pulled her about the ring she was wearing. Ok, some choices are easy given the wedding situation, especially between two 8.0 girls in a social circle setting. Basically the girl responded very well to my dominance, guess that’s her former eastern block background…or maybe my ten game…;). We made out quite a bit even though she doesn’t like public affection but who cares, my rules, my affection. There was no way to pull her though, at least not unless your game is far beyond mine, I mean on a good instructor level. Thing is that the two boring girls from the group were staying at her place, and god they were full of boredom and morals. Her other cute friend actually told her “go home with him, give your keys to the girls, he’s worth it”…wow….state gets pumped even more…and dominance kicks in again. “Ok lets go, time to go, I’ll make you a chocolate ice cream breakfast too” Girl starts laughing and wants to go while she is still fully clawed, with both of my dangerous claws. Boring friend interrupts and says that she doesn’t know how to get there…blablabla responsibility kicks in and pooof the pull is gone. But yeah, no worries boys, text messages have been exchanged and we’re meeting up coming Saturday when I am back in Amsterdam…glory times, LR will follow.
Sunday afternoon, next girl, my only ever serious (>3 years) relationship. Went well, felt great like it always used to but no more details here because she is one of the most important girls in my life even though we’re not together anymore, we still got a lot of mutual love for each other…oh shit is the word love even aloud here in this world of “hardcore OGs, wannabe OGs and everything in between”. Well, the OGs should be able to understand, otherwise they don’t deserve the status. We’re just liking and respecting each other and feel that we’re an important part of each others past and present, but that in a different way then in the past. And yeah, we enjoy spending time every once in a while.
Sunday night, meet another social circle number close for dinner, social circle game weekend you might call it but check out the Halloween FR, no social circle game there. Now this girl is girlfriend material…but I am not;). She is a cute black girl with the whole package (looks, character, confidence, intelligence, clear values and goals), it took me so much effort to get her to kiss me, biting her neck in the restaurant, clawing, positivity and lots of intelligent conversation. Anyways, we ended up kissing on her couch and damn, she always managed to pull back first…those values, “I’m not giving you anything more yet, have to make you wait to keep it interesting” Couple of subtle freeze outs in response but it did not happen, I didn’t make it happen but next time I will.
Maybe two LRs next weekend ;)
Satisfaction
Went to the museums night with a friend who said he’d bring a couple of friends who he joined earlier than me cause he didn’t want to look at 19th century art anymore before partying. I joined after I saw the collection and ran 2 good sets with one number close, didn’t want to close the other one…don’t really fall for stupid chicks. Came into the museum’s restaurant bar with a gleaming smile of positivity on my face, yes I still cherish yesterday’s learning pointJ. Straight away, everybody was infected, my smile was going around like a positive but extremely contagious influenza virus and everybody got infected. Said “lets go the front of the museum, there is beautiful life music”, to my friend and the four girls with him and everybody stood up straight away. Now, working dominance had ignited my powerful flirt state, whatever you want to call it in your book of pick-up acronyms. Right I away, I clawed the two hot ones and we went, thought both girls were really cute so I couldn’t decide where to direct more sexual intent but one of them said she was getting married this year after push/pulled her about the ring she was wearing. Ok, some choices are easy given the wedding situation, especially between two 8.0 girls in a social circle setting. Basically the girl responded very well to my dominance, guess that’s her former eastern block background…or maybe my ten game…;). We made out quite a bit even though she doesn’t like public affection but who cares, my rules, my affection. There was no way to pull her though, at least not unless your game is far beyond mine, I mean on a good instructor level. Thing is that the two boring girls from the group were staying at her place, and god they were full of boredom and morals. Her other cute friend actually told her “go home with him, give your keys to the girls, he’s worth it”…wow….state gets pumped even more…and dominance kicks in again. “Ok lets go, time to go, I’ll make you a chocolate ice cream breakfast too” Girl starts laughing and wants to go while she is still fully clawed, with both of my dangerous claws. Boring friend interrupts and says that she doesn’t know how to get there…blablabla responsibility kicks in and pooof the pull is gone. But yeah, no worries boys, text messages have been exchanged and we’re meeting up coming Saturday when I am back in Amsterdam…glory times, LR will follow.
Sunday afternoon, next girl, my only ever serious (>3 years) relationship. Went well, felt great like it always used to but no more details here because she is one of the most important girls in my life even though we’re not together anymore, we still got a lot of mutual love for each other…oh shit is the word love even aloud here in this world of “hardcore OGs, wannabe OGs and everything in between”. Well, the OGs should be able to understand, otherwise they don’t deserve the status. We’re just liking and respecting each other and feel that we’re an important part of each others past and present, but that in a different way then in the past. And yeah, we enjoy spending time every once in a while.
Sunday night, meet another social circle number close for dinner, social circle game weekend you might call it but check out the Halloween FR, no social circle game there. Now this girl is girlfriend material…but I am not;). She is a cute black girl with the whole package (looks, character, confidence, intelligence, clear values and goals), it took me so much effort to get her to kiss me, biting her neck in the restaurant, clawing, positivity and lots of intelligent conversation. Anyways, we ended up kissing on her couch and damn, she always managed to pull back first…those values, “I’m not giving you anything more yet, have to make you wait to keep it interesting” Couple of subtle freeze outs in response but it did not happen, I didn’t make it happen but next time I will.
Maybe two LRs next weekend ;)
Satisfaction
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Time to switch gears: lazy comfort zone relaxation out – furious motivation to progress in
Sometimes painful decisions have to be made and carried out, the one I am about to tell you about was almost made automatically in the moment, without thinking. Thinking only came in later and I am quite thankful to my mind that he stayed out of this one and let me handle it full, non-disturbed, pure presence. I started rationalizing this decision later on last night and came to the conclusion that it was absolutely the right thing to do, for everybody’s satisfaction.
So, I cut a girl lose who I had been seeing for a couple of months since July with a break of 1.5 months in between. She had started to like me too much and wanted to have more and more of my time which is roughly my scarcest good to demand. On my side, I was starting to settle in a kind of fuck buddy situation; it became a comfort zone. The girl is sweet so I didn’t want to hurt her or cause any more mutual drama than necessary but I needed to get out of this comfort zone, my game development had reach a plateau, maybe even a decline…out of pure laziness. I also felt that the girl was about to fall in love with me and I cannot let that happen if it isn’t mutual. Most girls clearly understand and also like the fact that I am not boyfriend material at the moment but overtime some tend to get to attached. When this happens, it is time to cut the connection and get back out there. This is what real satisfaction for the world is all about because the girl would have gotten more hurt if I had kept the ‘relationship’ going and because I didn’t my game will also develop better and into the right direction, lazy times are over.
All this happened last weekend and this weekend I already went out yesterday for Halloween and will go out tonight too. Well, time to clean the house a bit now cause I got a feeling that I’ll pull tonight ;)
Enjoy the rest of the weekend!
Satisfaction
So, I cut a girl lose who I had been seeing for a couple of months since July with a break of 1.5 months in between. She had started to like me too much and wanted to have more and more of my time which is roughly my scarcest good to demand. On my side, I was starting to settle in a kind of fuck buddy situation; it became a comfort zone. The girl is sweet so I didn’t want to hurt her or cause any more mutual drama than necessary but I needed to get out of this comfort zone, my game development had reach a plateau, maybe even a decline…out of pure laziness. I also felt that the girl was about to fall in love with me and I cannot let that happen if it isn’t mutual. Most girls clearly understand and also like the fact that I am not boyfriend material at the moment but overtime some tend to get to attached. When this happens, it is time to cut the connection and get back out there. This is what real satisfaction for the world is all about because the girl would have gotten more hurt if I had kept the ‘relationship’ going and because I didn’t my game will also develop better and into the right direction, lazy times are over.
All this happened last weekend and this weekend I already went out yesterday for Halloween and will go out tonight too. Well, time to clean the house a bit now cause I got a feeling that I’ll pull tonight ;)
Enjoy the rest of the weekend!
Satisfaction
Halloween
Well, I thought that I wouldn't have time to write this field report right now as I was 100% sure that I'd get laid tonight. Sorry to give away the overall outcome of the night in the beginning but after all shit happens.
So I went to Halloween party in Amsterdam (in Paradiso for the ones that know Amsterdam), Halloween is not that big here in Europe, 60% don't even dress up but the air is still more sexy than usually. Opened a bunch of sets partially directly ("you're a cutey but I wanted to meet you to see if you're cool") or semi-directly ("do you think spells work?" with witches and "hey you're a devil, I am a secret vampire, how bad are you really?" to chicks with devil horns)In a nutshell, three girls had boyfriends in the vicinity (+/- 3 meter/yards away), one hooked for five minutes and returned to boyfriend when he got mad, the other two didn't hook and straight returned the direct opener with "I'm here with my boyfriend" who then showed up straight away and it was off.
Best physical connection was with a German girl who had huge tits and a very tight and revealing top to bearly cover them. She had a little too much everywhere but couldn't be called a fatty at all. We were grinding and dry-humping really hard and it was getting hot with lots of touching. There is usually not much grinding going on here in Amsterdam and in most of Europe. It usually leads at least to a make out when it happens. Different than in the US I know and maybe in the UK, but that I don't know...anyways who cares back to the point. So I make the crucial mistake of deciding to get a drink first when I wanted to and surely could have kissed closed her right there, but my fucking mouth was so damn dry, that I needed water first. Fuck, I am still getting pissed off now writing about it because I could be in her right now. When I came back, one of her girlfriends had convinced her that she should not keep going. Tried to be dominant but wasn't enough, poooff gone. Learning points are clear, either I should have befriended her friends better or the damn dry mouth should have been prevented somehow by myself, maybe with gum or so. Anyways done, my fault.
So, second interesting 3set were really nice Dutch girls, actually one of them opened me by feeling my abs, had a great connection with her but went away at some point to check for my friend who was really drunk unfortunately but no problem, I come back everything is cool. Girl is older than me but I tell that I am not eighteen anymore and have still seen Ol' Dirty Bastard live on stage with the clan, the dj was playing ODB at that point. She was laughing and everything was cool. So anyways I could keep braging on about how well I ran my game but who cares, this is what happened half an hour into it: this carribean girl who I used to bed for a while this summer comes onto us dressed in a Venetian mask and a black cape, dressed in all black. I recognized her from a few meters when she walked towards us with massive fury in her eyes. This girl basically elaborately destroys everything that I had build over the last 40 minutes or so with her furious destruction walk-up into my close contact dancefloor game, so pooof gone.
Then there were two gorgeous French girls who didn't speak much English, Dutch or German and I don't speak much French so at some point that didn't happen cause I didn't know what to say anymore. Wth two foreign girls staying here together over the weekend I have to be able to talk cause I have to convince both that it is ok for one of them to fuck me, or actually....both would be cool too That's basically it except for the couple of blow outs, where I should have been more dominant cause it was dancefloor game which works best on strong physical dominance for me.
Well, time to crash now, peace.
Satisfaction
So I went to Halloween party in Amsterdam (in Paradiso for the ones that know Amsterdam), Halloween is not that big here in Europe, 60% don't even dress up but the air is still more sexy than usually. Opened a bunch of sets partially directly ("you're a cutey but I wanted to meet you to see if you're cool") or semi-directly ("do you think spells work?" with witches and "hey you're a devil, I am a secret vampire, how bad are you really?" to chicks with devil horns)In a nutshell, three girls had boyfriends in the vicinity (+/- 3 meter/yards away), one hooked for five minutes and returned to boyfriend when he got mad, the other two didn't hook and straight returned the direct opener with "I'm here with my boyfriend" who then showed up straight away and it was off.
Best physical connection was with a German girl who had huge tits and a very tight and revealing top to bearly cover them. She had a little too much everywhere but couldn't be called a fatty at all. We were grinding and dry-humping really hard and it was getting hot with lots of touching. There is usually not much grinding going on here in Amsterdam and in most of Europe. It usually leads at least to a make out when it happens. Different than in the US I know and maybe in the UK, but that I don't know...anyways who cares back to the point. So I make the crucial mistake of deciding to get a drink first when I wanted to and surely could have kissed closed her right there, but my fucking mouth was so damn dry, that I needed water first. Fuck, I am still getting pissed off now writing about it because I could be in her right now. When I came back, one of her girlfriends had convinced her that she should not keep going. Tried to be dominant but wasn't enough, poooff gone. Learning points are clear, either I should have befriended her friends better or the damn dry mouth should have been prevented somehow by myself, maybe with gum or so. Anyways done, my fault.
So, second interesting 3set were really nice Dutch girls, actually one of them opened me by feeling my abs, had a great connection with her but went away at some point to check for my friend who was really drunk unfortunately but no problem, I come back everything is cool. Girl is older than me but I tell that I am not eighteen anymore and have still seen Ol' Dirty Bastard live on stage with the clan, the dj was playing ODB at that point. She was laughing and everything was cool. So anyways I could keep braging on about how well I ran my game but who cares, this is what happened half an hour into it: this carribean girl who I used to bed for a while this summer comes onto us dressed in a Venetian mask and a black cape, dressed in all black. I recognized her from a few meters when she walked towards us with massive fury in her eyes. This girl basically elaborately destroys everything that I had build over the last 40 minutes or so with her furious destruction walk-up into my close contact dancefloor game, so pooof gone.
Then there were two gorgeous French girls who didn't speak much English, Dutch or German and I don't speak much French so at some point that didn't happen cause I didn't know what to say anymore. Wth two foreign girls staying here together over the weekend I have to be able to talk cause I have to convince both that it is ok for one of them to fuck me, or actually....both would be cool too That's basically it except for the couple of blow outs, where I should have been more dominant cause it was dancefloor game which works best on strong physical dominance for me.
Well, time to crash now, peace.
Satisfaction
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