Sometimes painful decisions have to be made and carried out, the one I am about to tell you about was almost made automatically in the moment, without thinking. Thinking only came in later and I am quite thankful to my mind that he stayed out of this one and let me handle it full, non-disturbed, pure presence. I started rationalizing this decision later on last night and came to the conclusion that it was absolutely the right thing to do, for everybody’s satisfaction.
So, I cut a girl lose who I had been seeing for a couple of months since July with a break of 1.5 months in between. She had started to like me too much and wanted to have more and more of my time which is roughly my scarcest good to demand. On my side, I was starting to settle in a kind of fuck buddy situation; it became a comfort zone. The girl is sweet so I didn’t want to hurt her or cause any more mutual drama than necessary but I needed to get out of this comfort zone, my game development had reach a plateau, maybe even a decline…out of pure laziness. I also felt that the girl was about to fall in love with me and I cannot let that happen if it isn’t mutual. Most girls clearly understand and also like the fact that I am not boyfriend material at the moment but overtime some tend to get to attached. When this happens, it is time to cut the connection and get back out there. This is what real satisfaction for the world is all about because the girl would have gotten more hurt if I had kept the ‘relationship’ going and because I didn’t my game will also develop better and into the right direction, lazy times are over.
All this happened last weekend and this weekend I already went out yesterday for Halloween and will go out tonight too. Well, time to clean the house a bit now cause I got a feeling that I’ll pull tonight ;)
Enjoy the rest of the weekend!
Satisfaction
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